new hat.

how fitting. a new hat, equaled to a new mindset. After long days of being reclusive, feeling sorry for myself, and generally feeling lost i've decided i've had enough. I came to illinois for an adventure. a new chapter. to learn and to grow. not to sit in my apartment and hide, not to be bashful about my intelligence in class, and not be be this young wavering shakey girl. Its time to get assertive, to remember who i am. or perhaps to redefine it. goals need to be set, projects need to be planned, friendships need to be make, books read, and journals need to be extensively written in. I am at a beginning, a crossroads and an end. but whatever i do. and where ever i am. I want to go confidently, do things wholeheartedly and with purpose. It is with this outlook i want to go into the rest of my week and on. so it is with a new hat, a new book, and a new journal i begin again. i sort through the mess, and wind up the ends.