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-t

for my fearful heart

do one thing that scares you everyday 
- eleanor roosevelt.

I wish it were spring. I long to lie down in dry fields. wind humming through the tall grass. in the company of a good friend and a sweet white bottle of wine. spilling our hearts.

white.

I really cannot help myself. When there is any hint of snow i instantly revert to a 7 year old who is eager for sledding and no school. for snowsuits and big boots and hot chocolate in cold hands. there is just something so whimsical about the whole experience of snow. everything so blanketed with white. crisp. new. i have a new hat with ear flaps. this is only making things worse. hee hee. love snow. LOVE IT.

babies.

i am not one who is shy to admit that they are not good with children. I'm not one of those girls who runs up to children and plays with them. who holds strangers cute babies. or even babysits. i look at them from afar and enjoy them briefly when i have to, talking to them awkwardly. perhaps this all stems from growing up the youngest out of everyone in my extended family, i blame lack of experience. But recently this has all begun to change.
exposure.
I've begun to make friends with people who happen to have kids. women at church, and our next door neighbor. women who are not so different from myself. its been a wonderful experience. walking into church and having kids excited to see you. making little boys smile and giggle. and playing with little baby girls. looking for kids in obvious hiding places. perhaps. i just didnt know the right kids before because all of these are awesome.

this little girl is norah. she's the little girl next door we stop by to play with on our way in and out of our apartment. she is fantastic, and has the cutest little smile. she has taken a liking to me. (a new experience for me) it has been so fun to play with this happy little girl.

Oh do come in...

                                                the new place.

God is breaking down my idealistic idea of adulthood.