Tuesday, April 21, 2009

.sigh.

The school year is winding down. Its amazing. it came so fast. in a way i knew it would. it seems long and short, my whole college experience feels that way. so fast four years were over, and yet i felt at times that it would never end. I'm in the last few weeks of being "a college student" its crazy that this era of my life is coming to a close. mildly terrifying. a little heart renching. knowing that i wont be coming back to this place, a place that i have surprisingly come to love. I have all my routines, i have all my favorite places, i have friends and connections here, i know how to get everywhere and anywhere, i am comfortable and happy here. I'm not ready yet. I feel very ill prepared for making it on my own. but i take comfort in the fact that we are all feeling this way. scared. excited. eager to make a difference in the world. and yet baffelled at how to do it all. how to start my life. my real life. a job. an apartment. budgets. grad school? moving? i cant wait for the challenge, for all the new experiences, for learning new things. for becoming an adult. the unknown.
But for now all i know now is that I'm going to make every moment last. every last moment count. have as many epic adventures as possible. and revel in all the "lasts" of college.

3 comments:

stace-face said...

i can't imagine that i'm going to be in your shoes in a year from now. i'm so happy for you. and i can't wait to see where God takes you and what He has planned for you. You are going to be awesome no matter where you go or what you do. i love you - i'm gonna miss you more than you know.

K. A. Ruth Bushaw said...

lasts are scary but more importantly, exhilerating! change is happening! new things are possible! ..at least, that's how i try to look at it:)

best of luck, friend!

Jill said...

i'm scared too. but excited. but scared. once you've done something your whole life...it just takes a little bit of umph to make it out of the daily grind. glad we can make our own new daily grind after this though. :) :)