wanting.

i did not want to get out of bed today. i did not want to shower or look presentable. to go to chapel. to go to class. to do homework. to write an inordinate amount of papers. or work ever again. i just want to lie here in bed. drinking coffee discussing life with a friend. i want to travel the US. then the world. and see all the beautiful things it has to offer. to take it all in. i want to read wonderful books. and have wonderful discussions. and fill up journal after journal with profound thoughts and experiences. i want to sit in cafes and sip coffee. i want to be in nature among the trees. under the stars. in the silence and feel small. just dwelling. i want to be carefree. yet care about everything. i want to go to shows. and watch the faces of the musicians. pouring out their hearts. reveling in the music. and let it all flow over me, through me, and around me.