there are just no words

I don't even know how to begin, i have not the skill nor the comprehension to write down all the blessings that have come into my life. I have been non stop busy. I have been taking test after test and writing grad school essays and avoiding my senior thesis, and working. All sorts of horribly taxing types of things. And yet I do not feel burdened, I do not feel too overwhelmed. I feel blessed. It seems like every single day. God has given me some wonderful undeserved gesture of grace, and i feel unworthy of it. It seems as though it has been so long since i have been taught gently. I have become accustomed change of a more painful and challenging nature, due to my own stubbornness. But God has softened my heart that i had so avidly protected, and so encouraged my broken spirit, that Joy has simply overflowed my heart. I had forgotten things. feelings mainly. I did not comprehend the completeness of a great friendship. I had forgotten the genuine concern and care that my professors have for me. The joy of people challenging me and stimulating conversation. And amist the whirlwind of academia I am content even joyful and that is more than enough for me.